sinisterkane

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The night was eerily foggy as the the first rumbles of thunder then the flicker of lightning grasp the horizon as it sweep toward me as i enter my house. The lights flickering as i turn them on, as the rumble grows louder as the storm approaches. I walk into the kitchen and lay my keys down and open the fridge, I loud bang as i repeatably whack my head against the fridge door leaving a imprint on the door and blood trickling down my face. In that moment of anger, frustration , and rage implode in a repetitious manner as i cry and then cover my face as i wonder why this is happening to me. I go into the bedroom, i look in the drawer and see the loaded revolver laying there, in a instant i grab it, then i put it back and close the drawer and then turn the computer on, the flicker of light as the computer loads up to start a new session as i need to talk to someone anyone, if for a moment , to give reason why i should not extinguish my life in one quick swift blow. In this, pain infuses my body as i grasp to explain why me, why now , when all was going well. then as i wait to get into the internet, i open that drawer and pull out the .22 caliber pistol and in a instant a loud bang , then a spatter of blood as my brains and blood splatter the wall and ceiling, as i fall over with the chair hitting the wall as i fall out of it and lay in a pool of blood. Grasping my final breathe, i lay there dead as i watch my dead body as i transcend into the abyss of purgatory for what i had down to myself. In that I responded to my illness as a coward would, with no resolve but the emptiness of my feelings as i chose my fate in one endless evening of guilt. Now as i sit there , i have nothing but a empty soul as i wander in purgatory as a refugee of selfishness and guilt and remorse, for now i cant even take what i have left and end it, a wandering dead soul who chose one unfateful evening to end it all.

mariasue

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