WoodenGypsy

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Ok I am stressed out to the max.

Sat Dec 29 I decided that I needed a break I asked a friend to watch my girls so that I could go out for a pre New Years/Birthday party at another friends house.It started out good, I had plans to fix my truck Sunday so that Monday I could get it inspected.Things were set for my weekend. I went to my friends party and had a good time, it was fun and festive.Around midnight I started getting a very big uneasy feeling, I was supposed to spend the night, but I told my friend I had to go home something wasn't right.She told me to take it easy and to call her the next day.Her son was supposed to be spending the night at my house so that he could see his girlfriend.So we made plans to talk and set up pick up time for that. I got home about 12:45. I walked in to my apartment feeling tired and uneasy, I pluged my cell phone into the charger and set it on my butcher block in the kitchen, then went to bed. about 10 am Sun I was woken up by the fire alarm. In my complex there is Nine buildings with Eight apartments in each building all hooked together. We have alwasys had problems of kids setting of the alarm and have gotten to the point of ignoring it, unfortunitly. Well of course Sunday had to be the exception. I laid in bed for a few secs deciding if I sould get up or not, no one knew I was home," I could just hide here until the reset that stupid alarm." is what I thought. If it wasn't for my downstairs nieghbors kid, thats just what I would have done. I heard him yell at his dad that there was fire.Thats when I jumped up, pulled on my jeans and a sweater and ran for the kitchen.There was smoke coming out from under my sink. I grabed the dogs lease,and headed for the bathroom. I let the dog out put her leash on and tried to find our cat, all the while trying to get my shoes on too. I ran out the building with the dog and no cat. I had nothing with me no jacket no purse no phone. Of course things where frantic.My kids where yelling at me cause they didn't know I was there so when they saw me they were crazy.They fire dept were amazing they came in and got the man out in the apartment that the fire started in. He is in a wheelchair and all of us were worried about him getting out, since the back at the kitchen is the only access he has to get out himself and that is where the fire was.They got him out and braught him over to the ambulance.There was some more panic when a nieghbor ran back in to his place with firemen right on his heels ccause he had 2 propane tanks in his house. Then there was some panic to make sure the fire didn't get to my bed room cause there where cemicals for my woodworking in there that would make a very nice bomb if it got that far. Luckily it didnt' get that far. The firemen where able to put out the fire before it got to my apartment. The only damage that my apartment got was the firemen going in and tearing out things to make sure the fire was not in the walls. I lost a bit of things in my kitchen and some of my living room but I was very lucky that was all. I found out that if I would have opened my kitchen door like my nieghbor directly below me did I would have lost alot more. Not opening that door kept it controled to the back stairs, instead of coming into my kitchen.

During the last hour of all this mess all of us that resided in this building found out that the man in the wheel chair, that we were all worried about is the one who set the fire.He was very depressed and decided to take his own life, and ours with him. I really dont' know how I feel about what He did and I'm not sure how much I should talk about it like this, but I do know that there is alot in the newspaper about all of this.

Now I am frantically trying to find a new home for me and my girls. I am staying at a motel with my youngest while my oldest stays with her friends. I have to pack all my stuff that I can save and find a new home. There has been some "good " out of this as the landlord and owner say but I'm not sure where I see that. They are giving us 2 weeks at the motel. No matter if we find a place after that or not. We don't have to pay rent for this month.And we have 2,000 dollars in which to use for dep and first month rent, clothes, new belongs,food,and what ever else we need that is not being donated from people.Don't get me wrong I am apreciating what the churches are doing and they are giving all that they can and I am not complaining about that. Its the owners that are gettting to me. You see I live in section 8 housing and if I dont' find a home very very soon then I lose my section 8. This is what I am being told. I have been busting my butt for 2 weeks now trying to keep my family together, stay away from the police(I didn't get the truck done so therefore no inspection),save my belongings and pack them all and find a new home. This is no small feet. I have never hurt this much before in my life! I still have not been able to soak in all of what has happened and I know I am going to break soon, but I can't I have to get my family settled.

Last Wed I found a three bedroom apartment really small bed rooms but beggers can't be choosers.Now The worker from section 8 has to inspect it to make sure it meets standards and I can afford it. I had to buy a car cause come to find out my frame is not stable in my explorer so the 374.00 I spent on tires last month is flushed down the drain.And I am 700.00 in the hole for buying the car. I am still at the motel atleast til Wed after that I have no Idea what is going to happen. During all this I have lost my best friend over the man I am dating and I feel that the whole world is falling apart around me. I will still plug away at this though cause this is what I do. I am a fighter this is what I have been told all my life and I guess its true cause looking at my life and all the things that have happened in it I am surprised I am still here and so is my family.

Well thats all that I can type now, thankyou for letting me get this off my chest
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Gypsy s I told you before I know what your going through! If you need someone to talk you can always talk to me!! I hope everything works out and soon for you and your family! Just remember it will get better!!!

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WoodenGypsy

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Thank you so very much blondy and bear.
I have a friend trying to sell my car so I can get back some of the money on the tires and that is looking good.

I have a good lead on a 3 bedroom in the town we were looking at moving to. We are waiting on the landlord to check my references and then we should find out about that. So things are starting to come together. After this week I will be off the internet for a while but will get it as soon as I take care of all the other things more important.


Thankyou for thinking about us.

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Wildbird

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Hang in there! I know it's a lot to deal with all at one time, but I've always been told 'what doesn't kill you will make you stronger'. And yes, that was supposed to be a pep talk (sorry, tough upbringing).

Seriously, you've got a great plan of action and are making steady progress. A year from now, you'll look back at this and be amazed at how strong you were and how much better you are for it. As for your best friend, they're probably just very disappointed in you ... give'em time. For now, focus on getting your life back on track and you and your kids back under one roof.

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gypsy i dont know what to say honey...i feel for you and your family...and things will come together for you...you have the determination to make things work. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers girl. Love to ya honey xxx

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