05-31-2008, 11:12 AM
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Aspiring Evangelist
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: buffalo,ny
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My Curse Part 3
Then as b4, i worried more about riding that board then i did about my health. i want to the VA and i had to have tests done. The one test required me to be at home and drink this most unpleasant solution. it was the first of many colostomy exams i would have to endure. Its a very unpleasant feeling, not so much the exam as it is the drinking of this solution in a timely fashion. I took the exam and found out what was bugging me all along was true, i got a second and a third exam and other tests that finally came to one conclusion, i had colon cancer. I at first was so mad, after all i been through in my life these past few years and to feel like this is the end, well its a lot to take in. At first i was misdiagnosed, the doctor in question stated i was terminally ill, i freaked right out. I drank myself into a not somber state and i went online and needed help, i got that help from three woman, i shall leave anonymous but they left a impact that i still feel today, i thank you all, muah! IF U READ THIS. I drank and drank and really was out of it, i just wanted to remove myself from here permanently, feeling lost, in despair and given that alcohol wasn't the best choice at the time, i wanted out. These three woman stuck to there guns and helped me out of a really bad situation, i had a loaded 357 pistol at my desk and really was going off myself. To hear news like this was devastating, to face it alone at my house was even more devastating, They kept me at bay , till i got my faculties back on my shoulders and stayed with me most of that long and trying night. And for this i will never forget u gals. NEVER... I made it and the next day my brother removed all the guns from my house, most came out here where they are now in the country, my hunting ground, my home now. I was getting my life back together and now i would have the biggest setback i could ever succumb in front of me. Only in life do we forget the most intriguing things are friends and family who will help you along the way. My mom was also devastated that her baby had such a bad disease. We survived together, as well as my brother and sister too. it was a most difficult time for me and my family and friends.....as with everything that went on, things would only get worse b4 they got better....
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lifes to short......  to just drag along ..... lets party
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