lostkittenlookinfordragon

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My name is Liz. Most people know me on my other screen names as either unknownunloved00 or misunderstood. I haven't been on this site for a long time until today. But now I don't know what to do.

I'm in love with this guy, but the thing is, I don't know what to do. He's mad at me cause we got in to a fight today. I don't wanna hurt him, but it's like everything I do is wrong. He's not my boyfriend. We've gone out before. But I still love him, and he says he loves me. If we love each other so much then why can't we get along?! I don't get it! And why is it that everything I do is wrong. It's like all I ever do is hurt people. I just hate myself.

In simple terms...
I WANT TO DIE!

I'm also bipolor. I don't have medicine for it though. I also have anxiety attacks and can't breath. Why can't I be good enough for ANYONE?

I'm only fourteen years old, but please don't tell me there will be others. I'm so tired of hearing that. It doesn't help. It makes things worse.

Angel

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hey hon u know i am here whenever u need to talk and welcome bk hon!!! u may not want to hear it but its true there will b others, but if this is the one u want to b with work at it, dont walk away and wait for one of the others! nothing is simple and if anyone knew how to have the perfect relationship then they would die a very very rich and happy person! i know ya quite well liz, and i know ur a great girl without knowing what it is that u do 'wrong' all the time ppl cant really say too much. all relationships need time love effort and attention, FROM BOTH SIDES. one sided relationships never work. you both say u love each other so i would say spend some time apart, u will both b there when u have had ur space and u can know for sure if u want to b with each other for real and are both willing to put the time and effort thats needed into ur relationship. no one is sayin u have to get bk together now and be happy, everyone has there ups and downs. as for u wanting to die, pls dont talk like that hon, u r a special person and there r so many ppl who deserve to meet u and know you in ur long life u have ahead of u hon. ur a great girl, let urself have time and shine like the beautiful star u r hon.

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shake_n_bake

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big_bad_smifffy

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My outlook on life is
If life kicks you in the teath and knocks you down
get right up look it square in the face and spit in its eye
"Say is that all you can throw at me you're not so bad bring it on"

i read your thread and it touch me to feal a person as young as you has such strong feelings
you have a lot of good friends out there draw stenght from their love and feelings towards talk to them.
listen to Angel some good advice there
talk to Jeff he seems to know what your feeling
your illness makes you think it's all you fault its NOT there are always 2 sides to an argument right or wrong does it matter which you are walk away give your self space don't brood over it.
you took a big step by posting what you have
a big step forward so dont look back keep going forward

best of wishes to you
it will get better I promise

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Blondy

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If you want something you have to work for it! Nothing is ever easy or free! There may be others or he may be the one! You will find out some day! In a fight it is always two people's fault. NEVER just one! If you care for him so much talk with him. Tell him how you feel, but if it doesn't work out hun don't dwell on it! Life is to short for that. You may find some one better for you who will treat you better or something. I hope the best for you! Good luck! NO RELATIONSHIP IS EASY!!!!! there will always be fights you just need to learn when to throw in the towel and forgive!

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lostkittenlookinfordragon

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I just wanna say thanks to the people who posted stuff encouraging me. It helps me so much. I'm working on going on with my life, because I have major self-esteem issues too. Jay and I are still fighting on and off. I don't know if he's willing to work things out, he didnt say either way, but he seemed happy that I wanted to work things out. I know one thing for sure though now. If hes not the one for me, if things don't work out, my heart will always be broken from just the sound of his name, but some guy will come along and pick up the pieces, give me his heart and help me hold my heart together. I just don't know what my future holds now. Thanks again everyone.

shake_n_bake

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well done Liz just keep your chin up and remember i could always be worse so no matter wat happens it can always be worse!

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peachy_donnamarie33

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Hey I'm with ya i suffer the same
If they can't accept yuo the way you are, thats thier prob
Take care

Kimma2004

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Relationships can be tricky Liz, I have had my share of complications with mine. You have plenty of ppl here that will listen if you need a friend. I know what you mean about the anxiety too, I have that problem. I know its easier to talk to ppl that know where you are coming from. Just know that its never good to hold things in and its also never good to think your not good enough. You are good enough, because you are you, thats all you need.

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