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Deeply Upset
I just wanted to say that i feel really miserable lately. My father has started his drinking again and hes making our lives very miserable. About two days ago,he told my mother that he wanted my brother and I to commit suicide. I never expected my father to say such a thing and this upset me terribly. I know my father is an alcoholic,but my mom says that he was aware of what he was saying. He hates my mom for telling him not to drink and he hates me because I'm on my mom's side. I am already a person with low self-esteem and these things only make me hate myself more. My mom tells me that hes been cursing me from the time I was born. Because of this I had always been troubled from the time I was small. Now hes even picking on my little brother. My brother wont study because of all the drama we undergo at home. He does'nt have a single friend and they call him insane in school. This deeply upsets me. I don't know who to go tell how I feel. I tried talking to my mom, but shes troubled and depressed herself and only yells at me if I talk to her. My friends rarely speak to me after they found out what kind of a man my father is. My best friend even ditched me. I feel very insecure. I'm still not able to forget and I'm scared about whats going to happen. My mother is very worried about my brother and me. I attempted suicide before and shes scared I'll do it again as I'm weak minded. I'm very worried about my mom and my brother too. I just needed to tell someone before I go crazy. Please pray for them.
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11-15-2007, 04:44 PM
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Charmaine, I'm so sorry to hear this. I just hope that you know you have friends here that will support you through this. It's a horrible situation, and I will pray that everything works out for you and your family.
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11-16-2007, 07:55 AM
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It is time that you visit a Counselor at school, or a theropist. Because here at this site, none of us are Doctors or have a degree to be able to help you or give you guidance. This is a very situation and it istime to put it in the right authorties hands.
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01-06-2008, 11:48 AM
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Originally Posted by Charmaine
I just wanted to say that i feel really miserable lately. My father has started his drinking again and hes making our lives very miserable. About two days ago,he told my mother that he wanted my brother and I to commit suicide. I never expected my father to say such a thing and this upset me terribly. I know my father is an alcoholic,but my mom says that he was aware of what he was saying. He hates my mom for telling him not to drink and he hates me because I'm on my mom's side. I am already a person with low self-esteem and these things only make me hate myself more. My mom tells me that hes been cursing me from the time I was born. Because of this I had always been troubled from the time I was small. Now hes even picking on my little brother. My brother wont study because of all the drama we undergo at home. He does'nt have a single friend and they call him insane in school. This deeply upsets me. I don't know who to go tell how I feel. I tried talking to my mom, but shes troubled and depressed herself and only yells at me if I talk to her. My friends rarely speak to me after they found out what kind of a man my father is. My best friend even ditched me. I feel very insecure. I'm still not able to forget and I'm scared about whats going to happen. My mother is very worried about my brother and me. I attempted suicide before and shes scared I'll do it again as I'm weak minded. I'm very worried about my mom and my brother too. I just needed to tell someone before I go crazy. Please pray for them.
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01-07-2008, 08:03 AM
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hiya hun im s sorry u r going throu such a hard time u an ur bro an ur mom do need to get out of there for ur own saftey like nilla sed go see ur skool counselor or ur doctor ask them to put u intouh with the rite people as only they ca give u the rite advice hun if u ever want to chat just pm hun
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01-07-2008, 09:26 AM
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charmers i lub ya girl...but im goin to be honest with you....i agree with nilly, and i agree that its important to tap into the support of friends you have here, school wherever....but its also important to remember that these situations get out of control in a spare of moment when least expected...too many times we hear about murder suicides and i dont want you or any family members of yours to end up as vicitms to this type of abuse and so i dont want to be one of those people that tells you it will be alright cause you juz dont know....get help and get it now...this sounds like it could be serious and i think you know it or you wouldnt be askin for advice right now...we are here for you and care about your welfare honey tc and do what is in you gut instinct on this one, we are not meant to live in fear
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01-07-2008, 09:37 AM
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Bless your heart. You can get through this hon. You have inner strength you aren't even aware of and we all have faith in you. I agree with you seeking help to deal be it counselor, therapist, clergy. See if you can meet some Alanon folks and maybe even go to some of their meetings. Your moma and brother could also benefit and maybe if you empower yourself to seek help, you can influence them to also. Until then, just get through each day, one at a time. You can do this!
Don't think because you're young that you have no power over your life. You do. You can also have a positive effect on those around you by your actions and attitude. Just as your dad has had such a negative one. Sometimes adults get so miserable they can't seem to handle how their life is. They can't accept their lot in life is of their doing so they blame others. They lash out at folks who are closest to them. Your dad is sick, in mind and heart, and no one can help him but himself. Don't buy into the mean things said any more than you would heed the words of a stranger overcome with pain, anger and grief. They're expressing their reality, Not yours. You're aren't worthless, hopeless or a burden and neither are your moma and brother. Yal all deserve happiness and it WILL come if you just hang in there. Trust me when I tell you ridding the world of any of you through suicide would not change anything for the better for anyone. Try to think of life like 2 bathtubs. A misery tub filled with blame, anger, regret, pain, and hate - and a joy tub filled with hope, happiness, comfort, forgiveness, kindness and love. Your dad has chosen to drown himself in the misery tub but you DO NOT have to climb in with him. You can chose for yourself. We can't give you a real hug but you Are cared about and Do have friends here.
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01-07-2008, 12:10 PM
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Awww Charrrrrrrr! I love ya girl! and i agree with Nilla...im studying to be a psychologist, and i think that it would be in the best interest for you and your mom and your brother if you talked to a counselor, and they can decide what your next move needs to be. I know you feel very isolated because of what's going on, but you arent hun. You've got support and we love you and care about your well being.
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