freakyfairie

Posts: 139

I am who I am,
Yes, I'd love to change
I hurt the ones around me
But my unfortunately luck
I try so hard that I end up
hurting those I love the most.

I really feel strongly about
my family, and friends, and those I date,
But yet I push them all away
Why do I ask myself,
But I cannot answer
for I dont realize I do it.

The newest victim has my heart
but in mine I feel i'm pushing
him away,
The first one that holds my heart
I push him away by my actions.

For I never really understood it till now,
I push people away with impatience
Though I couldn't understand it
why they all turned me away
I am so blinded by fogged eyes
that I can not see the truth.

When the fact of it is,
that in all it has been there
hidden, lurking, awaiting for my eyes to see,
What I have seen today
that opened my eyes
the truth was there looking back into my eyes.

The cold hard truth that faced me,
that I knew would slap me like the bitter cold
The pain in my heart that aches me
stabs threw me like a knife
For I am who I am

Now as I look in the mirror
at the face starting back at me
I hardly reckonize the person
before me as I cry inside
at the fear of losing the best thing
that has ever happened to me.

For I am who I am
Now maybe as I face the
world with opened eyes
Maybe before its too late
I can fix the damage that
I have done and caused.

For I am who I am
Looking in the mirror
I see the new me staring back
Hoping and praying its not to late
For I am who I am
This is me love me or leave me

Angel

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well im lovin u hon great poem

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KatRN

Posts: 3,408

Farie I love you girl and this is a beautiful poem girl! I have found that the ones you love the most are the hardest to treat right. But let me tell you one thing for sure you cant push away the "RIGHT MAN" because he will love your impatience and fit you like a glove. The ones who will truly love you arent these idiats that play mind games with you believe me im starting to realize this more and more everyday. The right person or person who was meant for you will accept you and love you for just who you are!! Ok im rambling and this is my opinion and experience on this "THING" called love. The truth is I think love is honesty, trust, acceptance, and joy...and I have yet to find someone who is all of that with me. I hope you find the man of your dreams someone who is worthy of you and you him. I hope you find happiness above all! Love ya girl!

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Dixiemom

Posts: 751

great poem hon i know what that feels like if u ever need to talk im here