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Deeply Upset
I just wanted to say that i feel really miserable lately. My father has started his drinking again and hes making our lives very miserable. About two days ago,he told my mother that he wanted my brother and I to commit suicide. I never expected my father to say such a thing and this upset me terribly. I know my father is an alcoholic,but my mom says that he was aware of what he was saying. He hates my mom for telling him not to drink and he hates me because I'm on my mom's side. I am already a person with low self-esteem and these things only make me hate myself more. My mom tells me that hes been cursing me from the time I was born. Because of this I had always been troubled from the time I was small. Now hes even picking on my little brother. My brother wont study because of all the drama we undergo at home. He does'nt have a single friend and they call him insane in school. This deeply upsets me. I don't know who to go tell how I feel. I tried talking to my mom, but shes troubled and depressed herself and only yells at me if I talk to her. My friends rarely speak to me after they found out what kind of a man my father is. My best friend even ditched me. I feel very insecure. I'm still not able to forget and I'm scared about whats going to happen. My mother is very worried about my brother and me. I attempted suicide before and shes scared I'll do it again as I'm weak minded. I'm very worried about my mom and my brother too. I just needed to tell someone before I go crazy. Please pray for them.
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